ok.. so there is this girl at the college i go to, i'll call her "Cookie" anyway... i will admit, she is pretty hot, but i have self esteem issues and i dont thing that i have any chance with her, but my friend... i'll call him "cory" seems to think that because she smiled at me when she walks past that she likes me. now i'm not gonna lie... the girl is very easy on the eyes, but i look at what i look like and realize that i probibly wont get anyone close to that at all.. or if i ever do then i'll start to wonder what will go wrong to balance out such good luck... but anyway... back to the now...
well cory and i were playing magic (a card game like yugioh, but the predisesor to that, and pokemon, and basically all of that) anyway.. we were playing and then the girl... i'll call her k... was takinga break fomr working in the cafe to eat and cory asked he to sit with us cause she was by herself. and he kept her there for a good 10-15 minutes... and the only open seat just happened to b next to me..
anyway... so i really didnt say much in that time period except what was needed for the game, cause i am a very shy person... once u get to know me then i break out of that shell and i'm a very no shame kinda guy... but i always start out shy and timid. probibly from my early years...but thats a story for another day.
anyway... after she left cory was pretty much like "wtf? i did that so u could talk to her and u didnt say shit" but ya... i believe the phrase "ur dick hates u" was in there somewhere...
anyway... ya, i really dont know what to do... the last time i actuallu liked someone, or tried to, they basicly blew it off when i told her and now i havent talked to her in a long time.. so i'm a little ify about telling ppl that i like them, or even love them, cause it's almost like some kind of karmatic punishment for feeling love... i begin to thikn that i'm not allowd to feel love... when i do, it always ends up screwing me over.
like i wasnt in love, but i cared alot about my sister, who i call anne. and ever since she hooked up with bob it seems like we arent as good as frieds, cause she hardly talks to me anymore,
and the one i call ohio, the one i told i loved them, hasnt talked to me in almost a year, and now cory told the girl i liked her... i pray to god that this doesnt mess it up somehow.
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