and the voices return...

so, shallow grave, here we are again, let's look at ur situation right now... u havent talked to the one u say call ur gf for how long?

im not sure

i see... and have u been trying to talk to her?

whenever she's online i try but i only ever see her on bolgtv now, if i see her at all

ah... so she's avoiding u?

what? no. she wouldnt do that... would she?

oh i think she would... y would she wanna talk to u? i mean... u know others can see her get on skype, but u cant... y do u think that is? maybe she blocked u cause she hates u, just like everyone else on this god-forsaken rock. she never signs in on msn because why? thats right... strike 2 against hre likeing u still. and where was the only place u ever talked to her?

blogtv?

exactly, and who hasnt been online for a few weeks?

maybe she's doing what i am, checking to see if im online, and when im not, she doesnt get on

if that were the case she'd talk to u else where, woudln't she? she's talk to u offline on skype, or get on msn, orat very least email u, right?

but... what are u saying?

im saying that she probibly deleted u from her friends cause she doesnt want anythign to do with u. when u first started talking she told u, she doesnt like clingy ppl, what r u becoming?

but... i've done all i could to not b clingy, i've done what i can to make her happy, what am i doing wrong?

i think u know

what? i dont understand.

u need to give her up, grave... let her go and stay here with me. look at what we've been thru together... i was there for ohio, and for bob and ur friend u see as a sister. i was there for everything, im always here for u. i dont block u on anything, i dont pretend to care, im here for u, grave. ur there for so many, u need someone there for u when life gets too much. that someone is me.

but... what about the stuff i do for her? like i sent her all that stuff at christmas, i got her this new thing... what about that huh?

who doesnt like getting free stuff from a sucker who doesnt kow when he's not wanted?

what if i just ask her? tell her to b honest? b all "hey, b honest... do ustill like me after all this time?"

"oh yes, my love, of course i still like you" see how easy that is? it wont solve anything

maybe... but what else do i have?

me u idiot.. thats what i've been trying to tell u... you only have me

yes... look to see if she's there.... u want to check dont u? u wanan see if im right and she just doesnt love u anymore, if she ever did. face it... u secretly want ur heart broken, dont u, u like hating things too much for all this love non-sence... fine... go check to see if she's there... ask her ur stupid question, but remember... she wanted to keep it a secret from the rest, she stopped talking to u... just like ohio... when im right i'll b right here, inside ur fucked up little head, waiting for u to crawl back to the darkness where u belong. maybe then u'll see that u just shouldnt leave my side.... go pretend to enjoy the light. just remember... u can never outrun the darkness, just cover it up for a bit.