none of you will get this, so i feel safer telling more of the story

ok.. so there is this girl at the college i go to, i'll call her "Cookie" anyway... i will admit, she is pretty hot, but i have self esteem issues and i dont thing that i have any chance with her, but my friend... i'll call him "cory" seems to think that because she smiled at me when she walks past that she likes me. now i'm not gonna lie... the girl is very easy on the eyes, but i look at what i look like and realize that i probibly wont get anyone close to that at all.. or if i ever do then i'll start to wonder what will go wrong to balance out such good luck... but anyway... back to the now...

well cory and i were playing magic (a card game like yugioh, but the predisesor to that, and pokemon, and basically all of that) anyway.. we were playing and then the girl... i'll call her k... was takinga break fomr working in the cafe to eat and cory asked he to sit with us cause she was by herself. and he kept her there for a good 10-15 minutes... and the only open seat just happened to b next to me..

anyway... so i really didnt say much in that time period except what was needed for the game, cause i am a very shy person... once u get to know me then i break out of that shell and i'm a very no shame kinda guy... but i always start out shy and timid. probibly from my early years...but thats a story for another day.

anyway... after she left cory was pretty much like "wtf? i did that so u could talk to her and u didnt say shit" but ya... i believe the phrase "ur dick hates u" was in there somewhere...

anyway... ya, i really dont know what to do... the last time i actuallu liked someone, or tried to, they basicly blew it off when i told her and now i havent talked to her in a long time.. so i'm a little ify about telling ppl that i like them, or even love them, cause it's almost like some kind of karmatic punishment for feeling love... i begin to thikn that i'm not allowd to feel love... when i do, it always ends up screwing me over.

like i wasnt in love, but i cared alot about my sister, who i call anne. and ever since she hooked up with bob it seems like we arent as good as frieds, cause she hardly talks to me anymore,

and the one i call ohio, the one i told i loved them, hasnt talked to me in almost a year, and now cory told the girl i liked her... i pray to god that this doesnt mess it up somehow.

new daily blog!!

hey there, kids

just letting anyone who cares know that i have a new daily blog called "life as a shallow grave" it's just my day to day life writen down

well thats all from me on this blog, i still have to post todays entry for that one

cya'll later then

good after noon kids...

im just letting u kids know that im making a new thingy today.. maybe 2.

right now i am making a blog with my fave song lyrics and i might make another about my personal feelings and shit about life and shit... so look out for those.

thougfht of the day...

"i will walk the path of orpheus

1000 times over if i need to,

just to give u a good day"

wtf r u talking about?

first and foremost... im a swearer. i will try to cencor myself, but i doubt that i will keep everything out... if swear words offend u or what-not, stop reading now...

they gone?... "alright", he says while stretching his arms as if it will somehow make him better at this.

secondly, for those of u who r left, i am a really crappy speller, as u will no doubt learn from reading this... i know i fail at spelling, just try to look past that and enjoy it anyway.. if there is a word u dont thing that holmes could figure out, then comment and i will let u know what it was sposed to b...

also, in case u havent noticed, i use "net speak" a lot... so i ask that if u dont know a word i use, treat it as spelling.. comment and ask...


ok.. now for the matter at hand.. ur probibly wondering what the fuck a lemming is... dont feel bad, ur not alone... lots of ppl dont know what they r, so im going to tell u.

lemmings r little rat type things who r fucking stupid, alot like alot of ppl i know, when it is time to migrate, they use the old saying "the fastest point between 2 points is a straight line"... these little fucks dont give a shit about what is in their way.. cliffs, traffic, they even try to swim across the god damn ocean... and they dont stop... over half of them die from exaustion b4 they ever make it to their destination. and another thing that thses rodents have in common with the morons i know is none of them want to lead the rest... all they want to do is follow and they want to have everyhing anded to them...

well i think im going to keep this short... this is my first blog and i just wanted to see how the whole "blogging thing" went... and i think that this may b worth my time and effort to make another one some time.

but b4 i go i wanted to just say that the main point of this was to get a feel at how this thing works and because i thought the title was funny if anyone follows this it will say "ur following lemmings off a cliff" and the mental image in my head makes me smile.

i think i may make a new thing about shit that pisses me off... that one im sure can go on for-fucking-ever... there r lots of things that piss me off... i will probibly keep this one open for large rants i have about things that really piss me off and i will probibly make another thing for my crazy personal thoughts, if/when i get arould to making them i will probibly post somehtng on here saying "hey real quick, if u guys care... this is the name of my new thing and this is what it will b about" im thinking i may have one for lyrics that i really like, so u can look for that.

and finally i think i will try to finish everything i do with a thought of the day... this could b something u guys goet or it could b something for friends i have that u'll b like "wtf??", just ask in the comments and i'll b like "its for a friend" of i will explain what it means...

thought of the day...

"keep ur emotions kid...they may kill ur heart, but they can save ur soul."